What is life???....

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2009-12-10T23:06:00.001+08:00

最后的一次，我选择歌词来代替心情。。。

我，到底爱不爱你，都只是不能说的。。。秘密。。。

冷咖啡离开了杯垫
我忍住的情绪在很后面
拼命想挽回的从前
在我脸上依旧清晰可见
最美的不是下雨天
是曾与你们的演唱回忆
回忆的画面
在荡着秋千梦开始不甜
你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
又何必去改变已错过的时间
你用你的指尖阻止说我再见
想象你在身边在完全失去之前
你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
或许命运的签只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋这一季的秋天
飘落后才发现这幸福的碎片
要我怎么捡

伤心地铁...

2009-11-20T12:49:00.001+08:00

抛开那盟约和你四目相接
想必你的眼里应该隐瞒着更多的细节
他想必狂野让你对我坚心拒绝
他会陪你过今夜他也许就在这列车的某一节

凭一种男人的直觉去承受这份残缺
当缘起和缘灭我们的过去已不能重写
我失去了全部的世界在这伤心的地铁
这么伤心欲绝当列车停止在第五街

冬天的纽约冷的这样直接
像是你的拒绝它千真万确读人心淌血
他令你狂野你们爱得轰轰烈烈
他在等你过今夜我知道他在这列车的某一节

凭一种男人的直觉去承受这份残缺
当绿起和缘灭所有的过去要如何重写
我独自在陌生的世界在这伤心的地铁
这么伤心欲绝当列车停止在第五街

那一夜那心里深深的雪
那男人的直觉那伤心的地铁

complicated...

2009-11-19T22:04:00.003+08:00

It's getting complicated...
What's the relationship between us???
I really did like you...
but you can't forget the past and you can't figure out what is the feeling of u towards me....

what I can do is juz wait...

I'll waiting for you, this song is not juz for you only...

and another song??? Waiting for you... it's a chinese song... go and look for it..
then you'll know my heart of voice....

淘汰...

2009-11-12T22:26:00.001+08:00

现在才发觉...原来我的爱情路是如此坎坷...
甚至不完整...
一路走来，都只有悲伤陪伴...
然后呢？？？曾经想过寻找快乐，
可是，到最后，只有悲伤...
我很想问：到底哪里有彩虹？？？？

爱情，来得像一阵龙卷风...
来了，就走了...

真的只能说我认了...
你的不安已经得到你的信任，
而我？？却得到你... 安慰的淘汰...

静宜

2009-11-02T16:16:00.000+08:00

今天，我终于从你的口中得到了答案...
虽然，并不是我要的答案，
可是，我却觉得非常开心愉快...
因为，你终于给我一个真实的答案...
而且，我觉得总有一天，我们会再次在一起...
所以，我会去学习如何成为一个爱你的好男人，
同时，我会学习如何疼爱你，爱惜你，保护你，呵护你。

现在，我们将会是别人眼中的好朋友，
不过，在我心中，你永远都是我第一个，也是最爱的人。
我会好好过，等你再一次的爱我。
不管多久，不管距离多远......

Singing Performance

2009-10-25T00:40:00.003+08:00

what is this 2 videos??? well, it's the performance during the UTAR welcoming concert during the May Intake.. XP ( no fake, it's my 1st performance for singing.. )

well, the solo singing part is a bit dump... but da duet i think it's ok la... =P
after u listen, pls leave a comment or something pls =P

Recently

2009-10-22T12:42:00.000+08:00

Boring, boring, boring...

how can I be such boring as now????

well, starting of the sem is really boring all the way till the week 2...

Everything keeps on delaying and delaying and delaying....
example? the sing k plan....
the concert performance....
but i hope that my life won't be delayed.... =\

well, studying, in the same time, looking for a girl who can comfort my mind =P
girls are easy to find, but to find the girl that really can be with me... it's kinda hard for sure

Recently busy for The Shepherd Production stuff...
well, juz join this team not so long ago...
and having fun for that =D
for more detail bout what's the Shepherd Production doing,
go to this site:http://www.theshepherdproduction.blogspot.com XP

=X

2009-10-20T08:14:00.004+08:00

Well, it's been another long time.... =P

Finally sem 2 start... can't believe that holiday end so soon
well, when we ask for holiday, it's like, erm... a target for us???
a target which can let us to relax, rest, and recharge ( 3R??? lol...)
but when we're in our holiday, normally we'll feel .... Boring, lazy, or mind losted or blanked... =.=

Recently keep on listen to some songs that related to my life...
which song??? The Prayer, the song that me and my choir buddies sang along...
anymore???? 热带雨林 and 晴天, the songs that I listened during my primary school trip...=)
some more????? Superwoman, the song that I listened during the Form 3 volleyball competition =P
and more?????? 小乌龟 and 只因为你, the songs that I sang to Ginny =P
more more??????? Graduation, 少年, 爱因为在心中 and 祝你一路顺风, the songs that me and my 2ndary schoolmate sang during our Graduation Day XP

and????? no more..... (got, but juz some mixing song Xd)

oh yeah, forgot to wish someone: Happy Belated Birthday~~~ Xue Ying XD
hope u like da present that I gave u la XP

Long Long Long Long Time ago..........

2009-10-15T22:40:00.003+08:00

Wow... It's been a long time since my last post....
well, nothing much changed...
juz that result's sucks....
erm... going to have 4th sem....T.T
well, recently fell down from my bicycle, and it's juz a small wound...
thanks to Fennie for let me wash my wound at her house =)
and I think I won't let those basketball fellows touch my stuff anymore..
why??? everytime they used my stuff sure something will happened....
my mp3?? the earphone spoiled...
My bicycle??? lose controlled and makes me fall from it....
erm... yea, bout my health prob's...
my appendic scar has a new, tiny hole there...
well, u can't see it, 'cause it's juz too tiny and small..
and it's at the middle of the scar... O.O...
It really affects my activities... like?? basketball and wushu...T.T
and 1 more thing... I'm getting poor and poor...T.T...

during these time... well, bunch of things happened...
Michael flys to Russia for studies...
Here's da group photos... XP
Choirs GangS

er... actually we're posing... XD

I know I'm wearing contact... >.<

While rest, we're having our supper at Mac'D.
guess where aM I?? I'm the Devil that holding the ice cream...hehe

Esther flys to England for studies...
We have a surprise party for that...well, I think I've been surprised too
know what?? I juz go there without any ppl telling me what's going on...=="

Group Photo, I know I looks weird...=.=

Well, everyone's flys out from Malaysia for study...
Michael flys to Russia,
Esther flys to England,
and Aaron stay at Malaysia ... XP
juz joking XD (but sure i won't fly away from m'sia)

oh yeah, due to some reason, I go and watch lots of Kamen Rider series... wow, I never thought that nowadays the kids are so enjoyable... even the Kamen Rider is in 3D effects le...=="
but thanks to that, I've learned lots of japanese speech... =P
(I even dreamt that I've became 1 of the rider...=_="... juz swt~~~)

anything else???
erm...
ok, talk bout my relationship stuff...
still in single, and available?? dunno...
and I'm still confusing whether Ginny and JH are together? or not??...
terrible, horrible....and???
well, actually there's few more ways for me to go in this relationship path...
but, I think I'll stop at the middle 1st,
'cause I REALLY REALLY NEED TO PUSH UP MY RESULTS....
if not???

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"You Are Terminated."........
.........
.........
well, it's not Terminator...=_="
juz that terminated from UTAR.... kinda scare for that...T.T
hope that I won't get Terminated ....

注定

2009-09-26T10:33:00.000+08:00

经过多少的路你我之间变幻无数
在情感的国度我只为你赴
纵然你身边陌生的脸扰乱我们的脚步
我不在乎追逐你的全部

走过多少迷雾问我到底何时觉悟
在情感的世界我只为你哭
多少次你我面临末路你说这是最初的错误
淌泪的心只愿为你付出

难道注定这是我们要走的路
所有的苦痛让我为你背负
我的心为你停驻被你俘虏
只怪自己为你执迷不悟
难道注定这是我们要走的路
可不可以让你把我看清楚
别让我永远追逐不再孤独
陪你度过一生的路最真的幸福...

快樂王子

2009-09-09T12:09:00.001+08:00

我在這孤單的夏天幻想你微笑的臉
我每天對你的思念不知不覺中的有增無減
常常聽人在說開心的時候要好好把握
別到後悔才感到寂寞感覺對了就沒分對錯

我們應該要把對方珍惜而不是放開所有問題逃避
難道就這樣的結束放下這段感情各走各路

明天開始我不再是那一個快樂的王子
所有愛所有痛就從此以後徘徊在我的世界裡
明天開始你不再有愛你深深的這個王子
沒了愛沒了痛你是否可以能夠過更好的日子因為不再有我

常常聽人在說開心的時候要好好把握
別到後悔才感到寂寞感覺對了就沒分對錯

明天開始我不再是那一個快樂的王子
所有愛所有痛就從此以後徘徊在我的世界裡
明天開始你不再有愛你深深的這個王子
沒了愛沒了痛你是否可以能夠過更好的日子因為不再有我

明天開始我不再是那一個快樂的王子
所有愛所有痛就從此以後徘徊在我的世界裡
明天開始你不再有愛你深深的這個王子
沒了愛沒了痛你是否可以能夠過更好的日子不再有我

2009-08-21T14:43:00.002+08:00

我还是无法把你忘记...
我还是如此深爱着你...
我应该怎么离开伤悲...
我应该怎么找回幸福...
我如何继续无聊生活...
我如何摆脱你的阴影...

看见你和他，我的脑海中，
不断地出现，不断地涌现。
已知的现实，迷惑的疑问。
悲伤的结局，再次地呈现。
我只能祝福，我只能等待。

悲伤汹涌着，幸福千里外。
快乐何去丛，孤单蚕全身。
彩虹渐模糊，唯黑白清晰。
吾问情何物，皆是无知意。
问情伤几何，爱于颠峰上。
何吾述其之，身在其中也。
败在静冷中，失去宜心痛。
今遭何处去，皆是雨天情。

04/08/2009

2009-08-04T12:39:00.002+08:00

Well... Good news/bad news for me...
a girl ask me whether I have feel on her...
well, I have... but...
I can't accept her....
'cause I can't forget bout Ginny...
Even if I accept her, It's not fair to her....
I don't want to hurt her like other guys who hurt the girls easily...
I think I need sometimes to make my mind clear...

Sukan Wilayah Persekutuan 08/06/2009 - 09/06/2009

2009-08-02T21:25:00.002+08:00

It's been a long time since the competition till now....
well, I juz wan to upload A photo that we take at the competition there =P

and the only and the only pic for Catholic Wushu Gangs~~~~~

nice right??? for your information, I get 3rd in the spear category xD

25-07-2009 Khuan Loke 7th Annual Wushu Performance

2009-07-29T22:13:00.001+08:00

22/07/2009

2009-07-22T09:41:00.002+08:00

It's been a while....
I feel tired and lousy....
and unhappy...
why???...
I feel that I'm always the 1 who keep on betrayed by friends...
no matter relationship, club and society, works, even study....
why I'll always be the 1 who need to be sacrificed???
I just wish to have a peace and normal life...
this kind of life is too "excited" for me....

Bon Odori

2009-07-19T15:59:00.002+08:00

Ytd went to the 33rd Bon Odori at shah alam...
well, it's juz the same but end earlier...
totally spent 60++ for the expensive, but delicious food...
saw lots of old friends, luckily they still rmb me...
drank 3 cups of sake, which cost me 22 buck...
well, the last cup will be more alcohol, and the taste like pale water plus alcohol..
a bit intoxicated ... 'cause gulp the last cup as fast as i can ...
same as last year, the view keep spinning and spinning...
er... I think that's all...

17/07/2009

2009-07-17T10:19:00.000+08:00

不知道我是否已经安定，亦不明白为何我可以面对你...
懦弱的我，什么时候重新开始关心你？....
彻夜想着一个带我漫游天堂，却留下世上最残酷的礼物：孤独给我的人...
痛彻心扉，已经无可避免...但仍然死性不改...
或许，我的内心深处，一直告诉自己：我愿意当你的救伤队...不管别人怎么看这永远的大傻瓜....

2009-07-12T17:27:00.002+08:00

Ytd saw both of u together...
well, I don't know how to mention bout my feeling...
what I know that is juz... I don't dare to look to ur face...or your eyes...
'cause... I don't dare to fall into ur love trap anymore...
It's juz hurt and suffer...
I hope that... everything will be fine...
you will juz happy with him,
and I'll just continue my life...

Dreams....

2009-07-10T10:19:00.002+08:00

recently.... you keep on appear in my dream...
I just wonder why....
is it because I've getting crazy towards you???
In the dreams, you nvr say a words....
is it because u feel sry of hurting me???
or you are speechless towards my annoyed action???
I don't know....
at least everytime after the dream...I will stop teardropping...
I hope that you WILL NOT GET INTO MY DREAMS ANYMORE...
You'll juz makes me feel more.... sadness...

2009-07-09T21:09:00.001+08:00

......
所有所谓的断金之交，只是圣贤人骗人的话语。
只因只是名义上的词句，让我们人们觉得高贵尊贵。
所谓好友，朋友，挚友，都是同一名词。
为何有贬褒中义之分？？？
人，是喜欢利用完某个物品后，便将它扔到仓库，让其自生自灭，等到有用时，当再次地把那物品从仓库里给挑出来时，物品早已因长期处于冷漠的仓库而不能再次使用...这时候，人，就会将物品扔掉，出去寻找替代品。
这就是人的本性。所谓的本性难移，指的就是这个吧...

2009-07-07T11:42:00.001+08:00

....haha, even in the dream you ignore me...
such a funny dream...
but thanks to this dream, I've start to have immunation towards you...
I will still love you, and I'll live happily...
'cause you'll know that... I'm the best 1 day...

原来最爱的人....是你.... 不是她...

2009-07-06T14:23:00.000+08:00

当你离开的时候
没有任何的理由
心里有一点痛
如果是真能回头
我想抓紧你的手
不要让你走
突然看见我和你的照片
仿佛一切回到我的身边

原来我最爱的人是你不是她
心里的无奈都希望能够
对你说明白
原来我最爱的人是你不是她
对你的思念
永远都我看不见
到底爱要怎么说

突然看见我和你的照片
仿佛一切回到我的身边
原来我最爱的人是你不是她
心里的无奈都希望能够对你说明白
原来我最爱的人是你不是她
对你的思念永远都我看不见
到底爱要怎么说

我一直以为时间能把一切都带走
不曾想过要回头
如果我们的爱还没到尽头
只想靠近你我不想放你走

原来我最爱的人是你不是她
心里的无奈都希望能够对你说明白
最爱的是你不是她
对你的思恋永远都我看不见
到底爱要怎么说
是你不是她

2009-07-05T20:39:00.000+08:00

孤独的滋味....曾经品尝，
但为何仍然觉得痛不欲生？？
须知道：她失去的，只是一个爱她爱到无可救药的傻瓜，
但自己失去的，只是一个不爱我，觉得我很厌烦的笨瓜。
心痛的我，
什么时候，
才能再次鼓起勇气，
与得来不宜的信心，
踏上这满是陷阱与多次坎坷的爱情路？？？
在这路上会遇到那曾经离我远去的她？？？
须知道：这爱情的世界，没有永远的故事，
亦明白：只要彼此相爱，永远将显现心中。
离不开悲伤，只好在当中疗伤。
解不到伤结，就把时间当解药。
看不到幸福，只好出发寻找爱。
得不到快乐，就带给别人快乐。
现在的我，将短暂地消失于中学时期...
为的是一个不爱我的笨瓜...
也同时去了解自己的本性...

04/07/09

2009-07-04T21:24:00.003+08:00

.... suddenly feel that ... every1 ignore me...
did I do anything wrong??? or because they know that I'm a emo guy??
oh come on, that's already a past tense, ok???
but...
I really feel that you guys are ignoring me...
Is it you all hate to be with me??? or you all don't ever thought me as friend???
everytime... I don't want to have such a negative thinking BUT YOU ALL MAKES ME THINK BOUT IT...
other than Wushu gangs... so far... I just thought the ppls are trying to avoid me...
Choirs, Dance group, my class, etc...
If you all really don't thought me as friends, I'm ok with it...
'cause... I've did my responsible to be a very good friend...
that's what I can say... for now....

2009-06-30T10:39:00.002+08:00

.... I'm getting stress and stress now..
It's just totally not what I want in this university...
it's just big different compared to my imagination...
Can't be trusted by the tutors,
so called "friends" which juz care bout their own,
even I feel totally ... exhausted, ENOUGH!!!!!!!!!!!
Why I must suffer like this just to get a cert as a prove that I finish University??
what's the meaning getting the cert??? easy to find jobs? or what??? ALL ARE CRAPS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Who am I? I'm just a normal person who ask for a simply, peaceful, and trusted life...
I just want to be happy in life, is that very difficult to ACHIVE??????????????
MY MIND IS GETTING CROWDED........
I don't think I can take it... anymore.....

Sukan Wilayah Persekutuan 2009...

2009-06-11T13:03:00.002+08:00

On the 8th and 9th of June, there was a Wushu Competition at Wisma Olympic Council Malaysia (OCM) ...
I'm taking part in Spear Category... and get the 3rd price....
well, kinda unbelievable... but I really did it...
to tell the truth, I have no confidence for this competition because this is the 1st time i take part in wushu competition and I've juz take training for 2 months!!!!
compare to the others, they have start to learn wushu since few years ago...
Well, it's ok.... at least my effort didn't get wasted.... =)...
still feel sad for something else, but at least is better now....

06 - 06 - 2009

2009-06-06T19:37:00.002+08:00

...得到的答案，永远悲哀...
爱的人，永远不爱我...
为何？？...只因我是....永远的悲剧人物....
永远与幸福无缘，永远都是一个人....
永远有缘无分，永远都是....雨中漫步的人....
为何？？...不解。
时中的我，再次回到熟悉的孤独深渊...
永远地继续过自己的悲哀...与再见....
颜，是色的朋友，
然而....慢慢地，便疏远了...
如此多的'曼'延...
与一丝丝痛苦的回忆，将永远地陪伴着我....

幸福...永远都不会在我身上发生...而我...永远只能祝福...我爱的人...永远的悲剧人物...永远的孤独...

王子

2009-05-18T11:51:00.001+08:00

灰色的天空落下了悲伤
伪装了兵荒马乱遍地伤
沉默的月光惆怅着过往
泛黄了江山红窗泪激昂

一步一步踏着腐败
一口一口吸进尘埃
独自一人孤军奋战模糊的未来

我是孤傲的王子做我的故事
用泪稀释的往事渐渐消失
我是孤傲的王子优雅的固执
用我倔强的方式尽情放肆

灰色的天空落下了悲伤
伪装了兵荒马乱遍地伤
沉默的月光惆怅着过往
泛黄了江山红窗泪激昂

一步一步踏着腐败
一口一口吸进尘埃
独自一人孤军奋战模糊的未来

我是孤傲的王子做我的故事
用泪稀释的往事渐渐消失
我是孤傲的王子优雅的固执
用我倔强的方式尽情放肆

我独自一步一步一步
一步地踏着腐败
一口一口一口
一口地吸进尘埃
过去现在明天未来我是否还在
我不我不我不我不敢期待

独自一步一步一步
一步地踏着失败
一口一口一口
一口地拒绝伤害
过去现在明天未来我是否还在
我不我不我不我不敢期待

我是孤傲的王子做我的故事
用泪稀释的往事渐渐消失
我是孤傲的王子优雅的固执
用我倔强的方式尽情放肆

用我倔强的方式尽情放肆

Hurt So Bad

2009-05-14T20:06:00.000+08:00

詞/曲:張敬軒編: Ronald Fu 監: 金培達

哭了才發現自己真的受傷了
你曾對我說你永遠是我的。
為了愛情我把自己的幸福都忘了
你快樂我就快樂

也許,是我們彼此都太年輕了
總是特別容易沉溺在愛情裡
每當我再次看到身邊美麗的花火，
你已離開我我還是想對你說：

baby I love u so much, 你走了我的心在淌血
baby u hurt me so bad,想要你回到我的世界
baby I love u so much, 你給我的諾言已經瓦解
baby u hurt me so bad

只要我們都愛著無論多苦都值得說好的你怎麼忘記了

下一片天空

2009-05-13T20:32:00.001+08:00

你说看不见未来　在哪里
其实未来一直在　你手里
听仔细　心中的旋律　那是最诚恳的声音
要为自己呼吸
至少还有我　懂得关心

别在乎我的哀与愁　我只是一个路过暂停的小人物
我～只要你快乐就够
别在乎我的哀愁　不要害怕继续勇敢地往前走
走向世界下一片天空

你说看不见未来　在哪里
其实未来一直在　你手里
听仔细　心中的旋律　那是最诚恳的声音
要为自己呼吸
至少还有我　懂得关心

别在乎我的哀与愁　我只是一个路过暂停的小人物
我～只要你快乐就够
别在乎我的哀愁　不要害怕继续勇敢地往前走
走向世界下一片天空

我可以为你画出美丽的彩虹
新的总要来　旧的总要走
停留不一定有救

别在乎我的哀愁　我只是一个路过暂停的小人物
我～只要你快乐就够
别在乎我的哀愁　不要害怕继续勇敢地往前走
走向世界下一片天空

请珍惜你依靠的所有
如果有一天你还记得我
我还是你最高的高峰

五月天 - 突然好想你

2009-04-27T16:22:00.001+08:00

五月天 - 突然好想你
Mayday - I suddenly miss you

最怕空气突然安静
i’m most afraid that the air would suddenly be quiet

最怕朋友突然的关心
most afraid of the concern that friends sometimes give

最怕回忆突然翻滚绞痛著
most afraid that memories would suddenly roll again

不平息
hurting with no rest

最怕突然听到你的消息
most afraid of suddenly hearing news of you again

想念如果会有声音
if my longing had a voice

不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
i wouldn’t want it to be a sorrowful cry

事到如今
things have come to this

终于让自己属于我自己
i finally belong to myself again

只剩眼泪还骗不过自己
just that i can’t deceive myself yet because of the tears

突然好想你
i suddenly miss you

你会在哪里
where could you be

过得快乐或委屈
are you happy or sad

突然好想你
i suddenly miss you

突然锋利的回忆
the sudden piercing memory

突然模糊的眼睛
the suddenly blurred eyes

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲
we are like the most beautiful song

变成两部悲伤的电影
turned into two sorrowful movies

为什么你
why did you

带我走过最难忘的旅行
lead me on the most unforgettable jouney

然后留下最痛的纪念品
and then leave the most painful souvenir

我们那么甜那么美那么相信
we were so sweet, so beautiful, so trusting

那么疯那么热烈的曾经
so crazy, so passionate in the past

为何我们还是要奔向各自的幸福和遗憾中老去
why did we have to run towards our different happiness and grow old with our regrets

突然好想你
i suddenly miss you

你会在哪里
where could you be

过得快乐或委屈
are you happy or sad

突然好想你
i suddenly miss you

突然锋利的回忆
the sudden piercing memory

突然模糊的眼睛
the suddenly blurred eyes

最怕空气突然安静
i’m most afraid that the air would suddenly be quiet

最怕朋友突然的关心
most afraid of the concern that friends sometimes give

最怕回忆突然翻滚绞痛著不平息
most afraid that memories would suddenly roll again hurting with no rest

最怕突然听到你的消息
most afraid of suddenly hearing news of you again

最怕此生已经决心自己过
most afraid of having decided to live this life alone

没有你
without you but yet suddenly

却又突然听到你的消息
hearing news of you again

Wushu Night

2009-04-26T23:16:00.003+08:00

well, Wushu Night was a success yesterday...
but I feel totally over-exhausted...
I've back home at 2 and sleep till another day's 7 night!!!
I thought that is 7 morning...X.X
well, not so satisfied to the performance...
'cause i've miss skill...T.T
anyway, thanks everyone who give their time for this Wushu Night...
Will always miss you guyz....T.T

Sorry....

2009-04-13T22:41:00.002+08:00

Well... Need to say sorry to Carmen...
sorry that looks like paksa you to go for the Wushu Night...>.<
I really didn't mean it.... sry....
I just hope that you can watch the performance on that night...
If really cannot, It's doesn't matter...
If I really gets u mad....
I hope that you'll accept my apologize....
and Good luck in ur Exam....=)...
and.... sry....;(

Busy, busy, and busy....

2009-04-04T21:17:00.002+08:00

Recently busy for Wushu Night practice...
by the way, who's interested in this, call me ya

Wushu Night
Venue: SMJK Katholik School Hall
Time: 7.00pm - 10.00pm
Price: RM10 per person

坏人...?还是好人??.....

2009-03-22T17:52:00.002+08:00

方炯镔 - 坏人
作词：马嵩惟作曲：方炯镔编曲：杨阳

那一扇车门
关出我们的裂痕
一声就震断了回头的路程

爱无法均分
以后就留给你们
也许用伤害结束爱才更动人

容忍的人其实并不笨
只是宁可对自己残忍
既然爱不能恒温
祝福就给你下一个人

你是好人也是个坏人
对我坦承只为了朝他狂奔
不能放任所以放了
这点痛我还能忍

我是好人也是个坏人
分得够狠你才有借口转身
宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人

三个人从不对等
总有个人必须牺牲
那永恒就等他带你完成

你是好人也是个坏人
对我坦承只为了朝他狂奔
不能放任所以放了
这点痛我还能忍
我是好人也是个坏人
分得够狠你才有借口转身
宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人

宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人

19th of March......

2009-03-19T14:39:00.002+08:00

Well, I think it's time for me to study edi...
but, still got lots of stuff haven't finished...
like?? I haven't get my driving lisence, My wushu night performance, learning music instrument...etc
Oh yeah, by the way, is anyone who learned violin before??? can teach me???
erm...
yeah, the 2nd Batch NS-ians get into camp adi... miss you guyz..
well, kinda exhausted recently... sick, wushu practice, physical training, this and that....zzzzZZ

1 more thing, I've decided to study Foundation In Art at UTAR PJ campus...=)
hope to see those who study there soon...^^

13th of March 2009

2009-03-14T08:55:00.002+08:00

Well, ytd go to MV with my choir buddies...(although juz 3 person...=.=")
Me, Tik Lam and Shi Ning..
and 1 thing.... Dylan's blur after he came back from NS...lol
well, what we do ytd is juz watch movie =P
Dragonball Evolution..
quite a good movie... but the ending a bit ....er, dunnno how to describe it..
before the show, 3 of us having our lunch at Food Junction
and have a walk to refresh dylan's mind...@.@
then we walk to Starbucks to buy a cups of coffee(not me nor shi ning, but dylan)
haha, the waiters there thought that I'm dating with Shi Ning...
(why?? don't ask me, I also dunno....maybe we wear the same colour shirt??? well, erm... happy to hear that??? lol...)
after the movie, we keep on chit chat on the things that happened during the camp...
well, thousands of ghost stories, but for me, I only heard bout jokes in the camp...hehe xP
then, Dylan follow Shi Ning's mum car back to Catholics and I? stay at MV to wait for my parents to fetch me to my aunt's b'day party...
that's all for ytd...=)

Photoes of NS...Part 2( During Open Day)

2009-03-10T15:03:00.014+08:00

My Teacher, which lives near to my house(seriously): Mr Mike~~~~

The most perasan guy I nvr seen, even Zhen Ting cannot fight with him: Kit Sern!!!!

the Left: Joel, The top, me, and the right which the biggest 1: Kho~~~

erm... let's introduce the girls: CB3's Group 1: Lu Fikirlah Sendiri's memb:from left, Nadhi, May Ye, Fatin and Erni..

The guyz of CB3 Group 1: Lu fikirlah Sendiri!!!! woo hoo~~~

Our respective leader during the Character Building class: Joe Johari~

The guyz power!!!!!(From left, Daniel, Joel, Kit Sern and Vun Chuen)

My another buddy which our parents know each other: Daniel~~~

My "Ahead" : the Ketua Wira: Sebastian!!!!

The 1st friend to have my 1st lunch at NS camp, and he's da buddy who help me in designing the Flag: Ardi!!!!!

My Buddy: Chi Kong a.k.a King Kong a.k.a Leo~~~

Our Head of Everything(Ketua Keseluruhan) : Firdaus!!!!

Nasional Service...ended...

2009-03-10T14:52:00.006+08:00

well, NS's going to end soon...
and I've pay a visit for my beloved, boring camp...
My gangs all out for their mission, and prayer,
so nobody there...>.<
but, of coz i'm famous inside there.
that's why i've another gangs for me...^^
well, this is my camp, and my friend....

the flag designed by me and my talented friend: Ardi...

My Character Building Class: CB3~~~~ miss the time when I fall asleep during the class...xP

The field which we used to marching everyday~~

My dorm...: Q2, too bad my bed had slept by somebody.....T^T

My Alpha Company Comrades...

Photoes ... To Be Continued...

2nd of March...

2009-03-02T11:41:00.002+08:00

100 Truths (Tagged by Shi Ning)
-------------------------------
001.Real Name : Chua Chia Feng
002.Nickname(s) : Aaron, Edwin(Add Wind), Emo, Cuaca, Emo-king, etc....
004.Zodiac Sign : Virgo
005.Male or female : Male
006.Elementary : Bandar Kinrara
007.Middle School : SMJK Katholik
008.High School : Catholic High School
009.College School : -
010.Hair Colour : light brown, brown, gold, and black
011.Long or Short: short
012.Loud or Quiet : 30% Loud, 70% Quiet
013.Sweats or Jeans : Jeans
014.Phone or Camera : 50:50
015.Health Freak : err....
016.Drink or Smoke : sometimes drink, but no smoke
017.Do you have a crush on someone : dunno??
018.Eat or drink : 2x100%
019.Piercings : -
020.Tattoos : -

Firsts
023.First piercing: -
024.First Best Friend: erm... can't recall...'cause too many best friends in my life
025.First Award : erm... forget adi...
027.First Pet : "Jiang Yu Zai"(the small small fish that my friend gimme de, but passed away 4 years ago...sob)
028.First Big Vacation : go to Hong Kong and Chao Zhou with my parents in the year 2005
030.First Big Birthday : ....so far don't have...haiz

Currently
049.Eating : collecting $$, so skip as many meal as I can...
050.Drinking : ya, the weather's kinda strange this few days, better drink more water....
052.I'm about to : go for work
053.Listening to : musics(非你莫属 by Tank)
054.Plans for today : work, work and work
055.Waiting for : the times flow till 4

Future
058.Want kids? nvr think bout it until I get married
059.Want to get married? After I start to work for severals years and have some $$ 1st
060.Careers in mind? All bout Music and Art, but too bad I can't study that unless I pay for myself...=(

Which is the better in the boy/girl you like
068.Lips or Eyes ? eye???
070.Shorter or Taller ? shorter.
072.Romantic or Spontaneous ? Both
073.Nice Stomach or Nice Arms ? er.....??
074.Sensitive or Loud ? -
075.Hook-up or Relationship ? -
076.Trouble Make or Hesitant ? hesitant

Have you ever
080.Lost glasses or contacts: yes
081.Ran away from home : nope
082.Held a gun/knife for self defence : No
083.Killed somebody : NO
084.Broken someone's heart : think so...
085.Been arrested : NOoooo
086.Cried when someone died : Yes....haiz
089.Yourself : yes??...

Do you believe in
090.Miracles : yes
091.Love at first sight : yes
092.Heaven : yes
093.Santa Claus : no
094.Tooth Fairy : no
095. Kiss on the first date: yes??

Answer Truthfully
097.Is there 1 person you want to be with right now? yes
098.Are you seriously happy with where you're in life now ? yes, and I'm going to look for more happy in the future
099.Do you believe in God ? yes
100.Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people:
Benedict Hew
Estelle Lai
Miaw Fen
Raymond Yap
Samantha Tan
Dylan Chan
Wei Lon
Wei Ling
Yap Yee
Carmen See

2009-03-01T12:03:00.003+08:00

Well, my junior: Gan have some prob's on her relationship...
and it's juz kinda similiar to my own grandma story...
and I can see very clearly how stupid am I...
why?? because I kept on thinking of my ex and let the chance gone...
Well, at least I can let go a bit...
no need worries, I'm still me...
I'm ok now, concentrate on my work, my wushu, and my life...
ALWAYZ ROCKZ FOR MY LIFE!!!!!! =p

你不是真正的快乐...

2009-02-23T14:39:00.000+08:00

Spring Choral Concert

2009-02-22T12:07:00.002+08:00

last night, there's a concert at Chen Moh Stadium..
and I'm going to that concert with my Choir juniors, Li Kee, and Shi Ning
(so far there's only 3 seniors there... and no guyz...haiz)
and we wait at the 7- eleven located at Jalan Gasing
well, reach there bout 7 something,
and wait for the other juniors...
then go into the stadium and watch the performance...
(so far this is the common thing...)
then, during the performance,
can feel that the music flow into my mind and body,
juz feel that it's nice and full of melodies...
but only 1 thing that makes me feel un-satisfied...
their pronounciation it's bad....
then during the performance...
suddenly become very emo,
maybe because there's nobody chat with me???
and start to think this and that...
and Emo...
but, when listen to the western hillsongs,
back to normal again..., especially the song: Go Tell It On The Mountain
a very nice and lovely song to me
then, after the performance we back to jln gasing again...=.="
and the seniors(means me, li kee and shi ning)
wait for our parents to fetch us back...
during that time,
we're talking bout the choir things... our performance, competition,
appreciate those memories...
and we keep on sang our last year choir competition songs,
which is Digahayu Oh Tanah Airku and The Bare Necessities...
that's all for ytd...=)

14th of February 2009

2009-02-15T19:55:00.002+08:00

I'm planning to give you a valentine's day present,
but your action tell me that I'm just wasting my own time for waiting you,
even I wait for a thousand years, your decision won't changed at all
and you'll only thought me as your friend...
Once again, my heart crushed...
In my mind, your action destroy my love towards you,
and that feeling won't be exist anymore...
that feeling had been erased from my mind...'cause of you.
Still remember what had I told you last year??
I can wait for you, till both of us graduated from 2ndary school,
then we start it again.
I can do it, I really meant it,
but you are the 1 who changed my mind..
If this is what you hope for, II will follow your will.
No more waiting...
thanks to you for letting me have the choice to start another life with another girl,
in the same time,
I HATE you because you didn't appreciate my love..
Ginny Ku Jin Yee,
I will try my best to erase you from my mind,
and I won't be remember who you are and what had we gone through together..

13th of Feb 2008

2009-02-15T19:46:00.002+08:00

Pieces of heart scatter everywhere when you hurt me so bad
from that time on I'm a heartless...
Start my meaningless chasing to something which is useless...
As I'm chasing without target,
I'm collecting the pieces of heart..
During the Rebuilding of my heart,
Those memories that I've lost flow back to my mind..
No matter it is happiness, sadnesses, or hatred...
Part of my heart's telling me bout what had I done wrong,
and revise my feeling towards you..
You had hurt me and I hate you before the crush of my heart..
During the journey to restore my heart,
I've forgotten who you are and what's the path that I had choosen since the time when I'm with you...
and now, the heart's completed.
and he had told me how stupid am I...
I'm going to change myself to be a better man, juz because of you...
I'll wait for you to accept me again
It's hurt during this process, but I think it's worth it...
the reason I feel hurt is...
I don't know how's your feeling...
I know that You won't see this articles, but in the end,
I hope that you would know...
I'm still love you...

New Year, New begining??...

2009-02-03T23:11:00.002+08:00

well, last sunday go up to genting with Chen En, Ming Chieh, Diing Wei....
watch the Legend of Shaolin....
well, it's juz boring 'cause they're playing the same style of fist from the beginning till the end.....
and they say the monk cannot see the girl's private place, right??
when those sexy dancers' dancing around the monk,
and the monk juz shocked there and look at their breast...!!!
I juz wonder whether they really are the monks, or fake??
forget bout the monks,
after the show, we gone back to Ming Chieh's House for discussing the Wushu Night Stuff...
well, we've discuss almost 3 hours and it's juz something block our way to success, and our way to our dinner....hehe
'cause the story line's hard to connect together...so we've think bout it for a long times...
then chen en say he'll settle it, oh well, then juz pass it to Chen En
From Chen En, I've know more bout the God, because he's christian...
and he's told me bout the difference of the religion...
well, i wonder why so many ppls hates christian??
I can't find any reasons that I hate christian....

then, today i've back to school to see my juniors....
and I've disappointed...
guess what?? those tai chi juniors... they only come for 15 mins and learn nothing in the end...
I juz wonder how's the trainer's doing???
they don't even know the proper way to play tai chi~~~
OMG.... haiz, disappointed...

After tai chi, i've back to TTC and have a good nap there... for 2 and a half hours...
cause it's been a long time i didn't wake up so early
after that, i juz go back to school and wait for my present...
saw Jin Yee and chat with her... bout club, bout her family, and myself
O.O... she can lost my phone numb for more than 3 times...
after that?? my training time~
having the physical training with my wushu buddy
too long for me nvr practice for Wushu, so?? tired like dead fish....
after that?? straight to home
and night...
while chatting with J, something happened...
I've juz suddenly emotional....
and ask her something...I don't think i should ask...
and our relationship is getting more and more complicated....
I wonders what's our relationship now???
Myself also don't know bout it....

Hey everybody...

2009-02-02T22:56:00.002+08:00

Juz wanna ask you guys a ques....
Am I a boring person???
'cause there's a girl tell me that I'm boring....
I wonder Am I really so boring when i'm with you all....
please tell me, ok???

我还想她

2009-02-02T15:16:00.001+08:00

泪水将我淹没
到底谁该难过
究竟是谁放掉这段感情
我才终于明白
办不到的承诺就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货
请告诉她我不爱她
笑着难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
狠了心说真心谎话
别告诉她我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答
我才终于明白
办不到的承诺
就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货
请告诉她我不爱她
笑着难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
狠了心说真心谎话
别告诉她我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答
我不爱
我不痛
我不懂
我的心早已掏空
真心话言不由衷
请告诉她
我不爱她
笑着难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
狠了心说真心谎话
别告诉她
我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答
别告诉她
我还想她
就让沉默代替所有回答

Yee Sook...

2009-01-25T14:06:00.000+08:00

You'll always in our heart, Yee Sook...T.T

I just can't imagine...you gone away without telling us...
why???...a good and strong guy like u will beaten by the disease...??...
When I receive that msg, do u know how sad am i?? or the others???
....

I juz wanna tell you that...no matter what happened, u're always my best friend after all...
in my mind...You're the best goalkeeper, best dancer, and best guy...
You'll always live in my heart... and we'll carry on what you haven't done...
We'll help you to finished it....

Goodbye... Yee Sook....

Edmund's Farewell Party 3

2009-01-24T23:24:00.000+08:00

To prevent Hui Ning, Brian's Brother from killing somebody, we keep all the knives and fork....XP

Size of The Gigantic Burger...

The Choir's Emo Gang's President and member:Chia Feng and Li Kee...lol

The 1 and the only 1 group photo...

erm... the 2nd group photo?? but there's a few gone to somewhere else...=.=

Edmund's Farewell Party 2

2009-01-21T00:52:00.000+08:00

Me and Li Kee, take by The Pro Photographer: Jia Cheng

This is me, thanks to Li Kee for taking this photo..=)

That's my hand lol....

Here's the Photo that we take during Edmund's farewell Party...
Part 1 onli...
Part 2 coming soon...

Me, Edmund and Xian Tze are singing Dao Xiang...We're Pro adi,we can sing that song without the lyrics or subtitle...DAMN PRO~~~~LOL

Blur~~~

my 1st bold photo...>.<

Choc "fountain"....order by Li Kee, but finished by me...=P

my saliva's dropping out from my mouth "slippppppppp"

The Gigantic Burger which is much more bigger than Modza Burger or Big Mac...even Giga Mac have no match for this...

Wow...three wise??? or hungry men are hunting the Gigantic Burger...actually is four ppl 1...but they didn't take me....=.="

Edmund's Farewell Party...

2009-01-18T20:03:00.000+08:00

Well, today's damn tired in the 1U building...
'cause it's the 1st time I go to 1-U....
reach there bout 1, and when I get in...
WOW... such a big building...
and separate to new and old wings summore...O.O
what to do?
have a running competition with my ownself...
running from the old wing to new wing,
and then back to old wing, then new wing again...
well, i guess I'll have so much stamina when I'm doing this kind of thing...
so, when arrived Neway Karaoke,
My happy hours....XD
keep on singing and singing...like crazy...
and fun, too
after that, we're having our so-called lunch at New york New york Deli..
such a long name...=.="..
and Edmund gangs order a gigantic beef burger...
it almost 4 times of our hand....
then, I shared with the girls the choc fountain, but the non-fountain version..
here's the pic..

well, 'cause i'm sick, so I juz wait for them to eat 1st, then I'll finish it...
after that, we keep on chit chat at the same place, till 4 something....
and saw Ting San and her friend...
well, today's her b'day, so?? Ting San, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!^^
ok, continue our grandpa story...
after the chit chat section, we're "long gai" along the new and old wings....
it's da 1st time I walk in 1-u, so i think i need to memorize the place...
later i lost, still can walk to the entrance...=P
then, we go to Homing, plan to buy a bottle for Li Kee as a present, but too bad didn't buy anything in the end...
ends up with??? after a long walk in the Jusco,
finally stop at the MacDonald with Li Kee and Xian Tze to finish their College Work... lol..
and Today's feeling?? fun, happy, sad, boring and excited....
Fun because of KTV...
happy because of chit chat...
sad because of Edmund's gonna gone...
boring because I can't get into their topics...sometimes...
excited because I'm going to college soon...lol
well, that's all for today...

The only pic I get today from Shi Ning....lol
Other pics?? coming soon~~

Account

2009-01-17T11:32:00.000+08:00

Finally I've figured out what should I study...
I'm going to study account and take it as my long term jobs...
'cause for me, I think that's the fastest way to earn money...
I plan to work as an accountant, and earn enough $$ to study other courses...
well, better than nothing to do, right??
and I plan to study at Sunway....
that's all for today...

Der....

2009-01-13T10:33:00.000+08:00

well, every1 start to get into their study and works...
and I'm still staying at home doing nothing...
Every1 have their own target to achieve...
but, I juz don't know what's my target...
maybe it's juz a very hard question for myself...
I've been thinking bout this for 3 years..
what should I be, what job I want to be, and why should I do this...
but, there's no answer for me....
I juz wonder...am I a useless person???
only the useless cannot figure out what he wanna be...
maybe I'm those type of person??...

心...

2009-01-10T23:20:00.000+08:00

过去的悲哀，无法撤除...
过去的我，因为过去的阴影敷衍了你...
在你的背后仿佛能看见她的背影....
这只能怪我无法忘记宜...
那个曾经伤害我的人...
害怕再次受伤的我，决定放弃你...
敏，对不起...
曾经尝试弥补过去的错，曾经尝试挽回你...
但是我们的故事的最后..
你还是说了再见...

受伤的心，仿佛碎了的心型玻璃....
即使你能重新将其融化,制造...
那颗心，都会留下之前的痕,
永远也磨不去...
既是时间，亦无法将其削去...

Boring boring borinG....

2009-01-10T21:16:00.000+08:00

well, nothing to do at home....
looking for a job....
and courses....
Guitar, and piano...
well, it's seem I can't run away from relationship...
guess what? have a strange feeling towards a girl...
well, I juz can't imagine that I can be in the so-called love trap so fast...
what to do??
juz walk and see....

我回來了!!!

2009-01-08T12:52:00.000+08:00

I'm back from NS...WoHO~~~~
Yeah, why can I go back so soon??
'cause....
thanks to my scar at my stomach...
well, there's a string comes out and they dun wanna take the risk for letting me continue the training...
afraid that the bacteria will infect from there and explode the whole scar...
sounds scary, but it's ok for me...
now? juz stay at home and rest for while, then go for work...
and think bout what should i study....
erm... Guyz and friends, any idea bout what should I study??
pls left a comment or msg for me ya!!!^^

Dream...

2008-12-23T09:33:00.000+08:00

Last night's dream...
In the dream, I think i'm at somewhere which near my 2ndary school,
for dunno what celebration(which the school's involved)
and I juz sit beside her, chat with her(about what? don't ask me, all deleted when i woke up...=.=''')
and she's playing her phone there(sweat, when she get a phone??)
and...it's quite happy to chat with her like this....
I'm appreciate this dream....
although I don't know what is awaits me in the end.....

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-12-22T17:00:00.000+08:00

Well, boring till.....almost, near the explosion point....
it's been higher than the melting, boiling and getting nearer to the EXPLODing point...
but well, good news that I'll be going to so-called quite funny camp--NS aka "Nasional" service....
at least there's something to do...
well....

OK, now, from now on,
NO MORE RELATIONSHIP topic...
'cause I think I'll concentrate on study and work
well, kinda weird, right??
'cause normally i wont be like this and i'm not this kind of person
but, this few days 'cause too boring for me to do something interesting,
I juz think and think and think...
and this is the conclusion of my keep on thinking result....

Genting

2008-12-20T02:48:00.000+08:00

at Genting.....
well, nothing to do,
and nothing to say...
cold, and alone...
well, try to ask Juliana went up genting with me...
but, well, she forget the date tat she fly to jakarta...
26th....
but, u know de la...
well, it's juz boring without a partner...
and... ask a common ques....
if i wish to be couple with her,
so...i know the answer is...
dunno...

by the way, carmen rejected me....
that's all for today...

Prom Night 2008

2008-12-14T02:10:00.000+08:00

well, such a wonderful days...
every guys wearing coats, every girls wearing beautiful, attractful dresses,
every1 becomes leng cai and leng lui adi....haha
well, guess what?
yup, no partner, single and nothing to do...
so? juz become the cameraman...capture photo anywhere, anyplace...
but end up with pull by somebody to the stage and dance...lol
well, leng caiz: Nick, Brian(prom king), Damian, Benedict, Dylan, Willion etc...

leng luiz: li kee, Shi Ning, Juliana, Meu Ye, Jia Yi, of course, the prom queen, etc...

Many Performances...especially....

everyone get high when the middle of the night...
well, tell the truth....the Hilton's food...sucks...
ga ga ga....juz don't know what to say...

well, something that I feel regret is I nvr ask Jia Yi to take photo with me...
well, not 'cause I like or love her, but, as a friend which know each other since primary school, I wish to have a photo between us as a memorable thingy...

ok, i tell the truth: I like/have feeling to her last time, IS LAST TIME!!!
'cause during primary school life... we sat beside each other for 5 years..(i think?)
and..u know de la... but after I go to 2ndary school, I seldom talk to her, and I think she hates me for something else??(I dunno, juz everytime when I say hi to her, No reply...=.=)

so, it's a so-called grandma story adi...
and I don't think she will like me la...der, she's so"~~~~~"(what's the word? fill in urself, either is good or bad =X)...

sien....

2008-12-11T18:40:00.000+08:00

well,...SPM finished....
Just Feel BORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRING since the day end of spm....
nothing to do....
play computer? sien......
Play Ps2? sien.....
Rest or sleep??sien!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haiz...
Any plans??
well, tell the truth, gonna wait till after my NS....
plan to study hotel management....
anyone same as me??
and what have to do now is...do anything that i like lo....
like? learn piano and guitar... bout piano, my church gang will teach me....for free..^^yay
how bout guitar?? Mr Ong Jue Sheng teach me, FOC punya leh....haha
well, might be getting better for my piano and guitar skill in the coming next year
hope that i can learn everything ASAP...
'cause? I want to join singing competition...
well, if lucky mayb i can become a singer?? haha....hope so...=.=

Now back to my relationship thingy...
Single and available...
but, at least got a target??...
who is she??
Carmen...
well, just feel no hope to be with her...
'cause during spm, I saw her be with other guy...
she's the 1st girl that would like to be with me...
but I didn't appreciate...should say I just haven't comes out from my "scar"...
and I ask her some weird ques....
I think I hurt her...
not just want to have a chance to pay back to her,
but I hope to be with her again, and no more break...
well, what should I do??...
Guyz, any ideas??....

The day has come...

2008-11-10T21:01:00.000+08:00

Finally, The day has come...
Our final Battle in our secondary school life...
SPM...
well, don't ever tell ourselves that we can't make it
We muz alwayz tell ourselves: WE CAN DO IT!!!!
Last battle, last war for us,
let's win this battle with our flying colours results, friends!!
Wish you all all the best in ur exam^^

@_@"....

2008-11-03T22:07:00.000+08:00

SPM's coming soon...
but i still feel lazy to study...
why?? any method can makes me feel that study is IMPORTANT???
everyday I feel i'm a zombie....>.<
tiredness, lazy, ntg to do..
what can i do???
and what should i do???
only 2 words: Don't know...

Graduation Ceremony...

2008-10-31T22:21:00.000+08:00

Finally this day has come...
I've graduated from this boring,sadness,sien but enjoyable,friendly school...
suddenly feel that the time flowing almost like the speed of light,
During our form 1, we'll nvr expect this day will come so fast like juz close and open your eyes at once...
To all of my friends, Maybe we can't see each other in the future,
but, please keep in touch, ok??
and wish you all good luck in your spm and in the future, too~
Chia Feng will always be there when you needs someone to help or counsel..(of course i'll be the 1 who look for you guys to counselling me...=.="lol...)

This is our class with other classes:SF2, SF1, P1 & P3's performance~ Enjoy~

SF2 Guyz Rockz!!!!^^

下一片天空 ...

2008-10-24T22:52:00.000+08:00

终于...最后她拒绝了我....
对于这麻木的感觉...
虽然已经逐渐习惯...
但在一起尝到的滋味...
让我再一次的对爱情失去信心...
现在的我...
希望借此心情...
让自己发奋...
麻醉自己...

几分....

2008-10-19T18:31:00.001+08:00

几分.wma -

Enough...

2008-10-14T21:58:00.001+08:00

It's enough...
I don't want to have any relationship anymore...
It's suffer, it's loneliness....and it's painful...
...
.....
Shih Shin...
She don't like me...
but she forced to think bout whether she can accept me as her bf or not...
I give up...
I don't want to hear anything that say I accept you just don't want you to feel dissappointed....

Ying Bin...
I'm the stupid 1 who going to like a girl that won't like me at all...

....yea,
A guy like me, which girl will like such a guy like me???...
I think no one....
and I finally know that...why Jin Yee says she accept me just because don't want me to feel dissappointed...
haha...yea, I'm sucker...

转角遇到爱

2008-10-12T13:40:00.000+08:00

This is the drama that she asked me to watch...
don't know why...
I've just feel sad, and emo when i watch this...
and what she had told me keep on refreshing on my mind...
I really don't know what should I do to forget the past...

O.O.......

2008-10-10T23:47:00.000+08:00

My trial result....sucks...
6 subjects pass and 5 subjects fail....
MALAY,CHINESE,ENGLISH,MATH,MORAL,and EST passed,
CHEMISTRY,PHYSICS,ADD MATH, ACCOUNT, AND HISTORY failed...
erm...
tell the truth,
I think those 5 subject... I should not fail,
and I promise myself that those 5 will be A, not 8E....
besides that,
like chinese,english,math and moral...
I MUST get A for that...
well...
Gonna Be More Hardworking than before,
More than PMR, or what I had be last time....
3 weeks more, and the 2ndary school life end line is not far from me...

Unbelievable....

2008-10-06T22:50:00.000+08:00

My Mod Math and English get B4....
which mean I can score at least A2 in SPM...
but...
Add math + physics + account...failed...
need to be more practice on it starting from today...
well,
i think add math is no prob's for me
'cause the model spm or spm clone paper i can do it very well...
but....
Sejarah, Moral, Physics, Chemistry, and my Chinese Literature...
it's such a hard test for me....

But, hope to get well result in SPM ....
and wish all of my friends: Good Results In SPM^^

What's had happened this hols??

2008-10-04T21:23:00.000+08:00

what had happened this boring,annoying holidays??
well, tell a girl tat i love her,
start to chat with my ex again,
summore??
yea, of course spm...
I juz feel lazy to study at home,
but at tuition centre,
I'm different.
I'm full of concentration and energy to study when i'm at my tuition centre...
don't ask me why, I also don't know why I'll be like this...
and still left 1 day for my Puasa hols,
still thinking what should i do bout it.....
study?? sure don't have the power to study...

the girl that i tell her that i love her,
well,
i don't think she like me at all,
'cause... i think we're 2 different world's people...
well, what can i do?? i had already told her,
and she'll think bout it and give me the answer after spm
but, i've already feel that her answer will be: no,
so, now what??
juz wait for fun,
and prepare for spm
oh yeah, wish my friends have a good result in ur spm ya!!!

what the....

2008-10-01T21:57:00.000+08:00

Anne....1 of my counselor...
suddenly add me into the conversation between Anne and she...
i think she's juz want us to be friends once and for all...
but, I juz don't know what should I talk to her and what should I do bout it...
and I juz no mood to talk bout it...
and juz once, she close the conversation and leave,,
is it both of us can only be enemy the whole life???...

May I Love You?...

2008-10-01T18:38:00.000+08:00

A song from 張智成,
A Malaysia singer which not so popular...
I ask cindy to listen to it,,,
and she ask me whether am i .....telling her that I Love her??...
I don't know how to answer her....

張智成 May I Love You

Songs...

2008-09-30T22:32:00.000+08:00

I think from now on, other than writing some useless stuff that ppl hard to know my feelings, I'll post a song which same as my feeling for that blog...
so...if u can't get what i mean from my blog, try to listen to the song...

重返寂寞

2008-09-30T22:31:00.001+08:00

......

2008-09-30T19:46:00.000+08:00

My relationship with Cindy becomes better and better...
although we are still friend, but i can sense that I still got a chance...
but...
how stupid am i??... go and jealous to a guy which i don't know him...
Cindy keeps on praise on him for his art&drawing skill...
and i just.... angry all of sudden...
C:"He's very good!!I think I like him"
A:"Oh..."
C:"Haha,just joking!!"
A:"Never Mind what, I'm just your friend, isn't it??..."
C:"He is 10 years elder than me leh!!"
A:"so??As long as you like him, ages is not a reason..."
C:"I heard that he looks very..."
A:"Heard only isn't it??,ask him out and see his face directly, maybe he's a handsome 1......"
C:"I have my dinner now."
A:"then, we stop here........"

不甘..示弱...

2008-09-23T19:28:00.000+08:00

不甘示弱...another song which I wish to let her listen...
the lyrics...just as what as I think and what I want to say...
but, I know even she listen to this song, nothing will change...
she's still his Girlfriend, and I'm still the 1 who being hurted..

不甘示弱
清晨的路口还有你的面容
其实我还是不懂到底哪里出了错
寂寞的双手现在选择沉默
忍不住想挽留话却说不出口
一时的勇气抹不掉伤心回忆我以为我了解你

该离开的人是我我竟然还手足无措
太倔强的我还企图装洒脱
自从你离开以后爱你的眼泪很寂寞
习惯你的我习惯不自由

付出了太多平衡不了是我
手心手背都是肉怎么错的都是我
你用了冷漠狠狠的错怪我
是你欺骗了我我不能先低头
一时的勇气抹不掉伤心回忆
我以为我拥有你

该离开的人是我我竟然还手足无措
太倔强的我还企图装洒脱
自从你离开以后爱你的眼泪很寂寞
习惯你的我习惯不自由

没有用的人是我都怪我太不甘示弱
即使舍不得让你一个人走
自从你离开以后我选择在原地守候
失去我才懂是我不成熟都怪我自己太不甘示弱

SAD

2008-09-14T19:09:00.000+08:00

Well....another road blocked....
but this time....I really feel sad bout the block...
Yesterday I asked Yin Foon about whether she had ever be in a relationship or not...
and when she say she don't know...
I'm very sure she's in a relationship now...
and what i done yesterday is...
juz want to gift her a jelly mooncake ...
but what she tells me is she has a bf...
what I'm thinking is true...
that's why...
I just tell her that I know everything since yesterday when i ask u those question...
and why I gift her the jelly mooncake is juz a prove of friendship,
no more than that...
haiz....
Heart break again...
but, what to do??....
I've just concentrate on my trial 1st...
...It will be my another sad memories...
well, i know there will be another girl who is truly loves me awaits me...

O.O....

2008-09-03T22:59:00.000+08:00

These few months sure very tired, boring and stressful...
why??
It seems it's time to prepare for my SPM...although it's late...
well, I really don't feel wanna study anything....
but, today after having an extra class with S class, suddenly feel that it's time to hardworking...
It's seems that S class has the spirit to make others become hardworking...
...
...
...
ok, another things that I still border bout it is...
Relationship...
I don't know whether is because there's too many couples in school or what,
it makes me wanna start another relationship with other girls(sure that won't be her anymore..)
but, I really afraid that the girl that which-will-be-my-girlfriend... will be same as her...
well, tell the true, I really don't want to be bachelor ....
Geez.......

Suat Yi, I don't know how she feel to me,
but, tell the truth, what i feel in her is....she just thought me as friend...
friends, friends, friends.....
What a common, but lovely word....=.=
How bout another 2??? It's seems I'll really getting crazy bout this...

Shih Shin, well, I think we juz can be the best friend...
Best friend, huh??
Yea, Just Best friend, no other....>.<...

Yin Foon.... the girl which beside me and having the same tuition with me alone 3 years in da same tuition centre...
I really hope that she can be my gf, but...
haiz, forget about it, after spm, she's going to study at overseas....
And... I don't think she have the love feeling to me at all...seems I had ask her to be my girlfriend twice...but failed...(wei, it's 2006 and 2007, not 2008, ok... I haven't ask this year, but....I think the result will be the same...T.T)

Ok, back to study,
Physics and Chemistry, what I scare bout it is juz essay...
History and Moral, What the....Too many things to study plus to many things to memorise....
Malay....The 1 which if I failed, my certificate will fly away....
Chinese And Chinese Literature.... haiz, getting worst and worst....
Account...hey, I haven't start my revision bout this subject, man.....
Mod Math and Add Math....Is this the 1 which I can score better???I guess so...
EST???...what the hell is this??? haiz... also need to prepare, but how??
English....another subject that I feel that i have the confidence to score....

well, trial is next week,
I don't think I have time to prepare soo many subject and key in so many things into my brains...
but, what to do??? Pray for it lo....

Prob's Prob's Prob's....

2008-08-31T15:57:00.000+08:00

Why The prob's always look for me when I'm totally busy??
Well...this prob's quite hard to solve it...because....

Friday, I suddenly remember that Jia Hui gonna back to England soon,
and her birthday is on december...well, normally or should say seriously during December I'm totally busy and I don't know whether she'll back to M'sia or not during that time, so, I just bought a present for her (of course, I just thought her as friend...don't think too much just because of the present...=.=)
Then, back to home she sms me and says thanks to me lo.... but I don't know why... I go and tell her that last time I've think before to chase after her...but, during that time Weng Sheng is chasing after her, too...so, I don't wanna fight with friend, so I choose to give up.... after she back from england, I've also think before to chase after her, but i know that she likes a guy adi ma(but i don't know that she got bf adi...) so?? juz thought her as friend lo...See carefully, I told her that i thought her as friend, ok??

Then, the second day, I sms her and ask her when will she back to england... Nightmares had begun....
Her boyfriends juz took her phone and keep on sms foreign languages to me...OMG....
then, I tell him to stay calm and listen to me, that i never tries to take ur Girlfriend from your side, and i juz thought her as friend now.... Isn't it clear???
Do u know what he say?? :"GB, try to kao my gf still wanna say my bad words infront of her?? don't let me see u around, if not I won't know what will i do if i see u!!!".....
Wow, did i said before to chase her girlfriend and grab her from ur side???...@.@
then, I juz sms him I nvr say anything bad bout u in front of her, but what u had said or should say u should control ur emotional... 'cause if you don't try to control it, in the end, The reason that both of u break off not because of me, but it's your emotional( I juz don't want somebody to have the same ending like me...T.T)

after that??? still the same....foreign language....
Then in the end, I sms him to ask him whether is it he wants to beat me or scold me infront of me is the way to release his anger??? fine then, You come and look for me at Catholic High School this thursday, You want to beat me, or scold me, It's up to you....

So...I think I'll need to punch by him, then, that's the way to end this prob's.....haiz

One's Out...who's next??(hope it will getting less and less...)

2008-08-20T23:04:00.000+08:00

well.... the answer i had get from a girl...
It's no, but i feel happy...
'cause i can't stop thinking that i'll hurt another girl if I choose either 1 of them...
well, sounds like very perasan, but, it's really gives me a lot of stress....
haiz...

乌龟妹....

2008-08-13T21:30:00.000+08:00

我想...我真的变了...
不知道从什么时候开始....
我...觉得我越来越不知道自己在做什么.....
对她,我已经不再抱有一丝希望,已不希望她再一次地接受我...
但是...
第二个问题....
失去了第一个"乌龟妹"....竟然....多了三个.....
一个,我们有共同的兴趣, 糊涂的她让我希望待在她的身边守护她....
另一个, 名副其实的"乌龟妹"... "笑一笑,没什么大不了"是她的座右铭,她真的笑一笑就没事了...
跟她在一起,我会觉得...开心...
最后一个...打篮球的...射球很棒哦,但... 跌倒次数多不胜数...然而...她最需要依靠时...我一定会在她旁边鼓励她,激励她...

我知道...我不应该想,也不想再一次地触碰"爱情"这东西...
况且...大考都快来临了...
我知道我不应该,但我却无法处之不理....
我害怕的...不只是怕伤害她们.....
我更害怕的...是同样的悲剧会再次在我的人生中重演....
我...到底该怎么办.....???....

Sry, sry and sry...

2008-08-13T21:15:00.000+08:00

Well, sry for very late update...
'cause very busy for something else...
so, no time for me to update....T.T
Well, this few months....still the same la...
what's had happened??
My another~ cousin's wedding party....
Guess what? I had pushed by my family members to the stage for a song!!!!....
well, it's the 1st time I sing alone in front of a bunch of people....
during singing,
1st, my hand shake,
2nd, my leg shake,
in the end, the whole body shake~~~
of course i didn't use the OSIM shake machine or something la...
but juz feel nervous bout the 1st time alone performance...
well...the performance sucks....
why?....out of pitch, and some simple mistake that will make normally...

anyway, I think after this, i'll be more confidence to myself, why??
'cause I feel wanna try it again and i'll do well than this time!!!

Confused??...NO~~~

2008-07-23T21:34:00.000+08:00

Haiz...guys, BIG PROB's here...
well, saw my previous blog??...
...I didn't feel sad bout her anymore, juz feel don't wanna saw them only...
but, today i saw her, we juz thought each other r transparent and nothing happen...
?? juz feel kinda strange...well forget bout it...
this's not the big prob after all...
I start to feel that i'm become flower-hearted....
Just like SP....
i nvr think to be like that... but i juz can't control myself...
what evidence??....
I told a girl that i like her without thinking properly(she haaven't give me the answer, but...u know la..)....
and i even go to chase on other girls....
I feel very weird...and I start to feel that I don't know who am i at all...even this is MY BODY and SOUL...
can somebody pls help me??....
I'm in a big, big trouble now...

忘记...

2008-06-29T21:50:00.000+08:00

你...真的得到幸福了吗??..
而我...真的忘得了你吗....?
看着你跟他在一起...心中突然仿佛被刀剑所刺....
看着你跟她...多么地开心.... 仿佛以前的回忆都只能纪念...
我...曾经喜欢过你...
不管我有多爱你....
那只能安慰自己....
你...已不属于我....
我...已经无法再叫你....笨乌龟,乌龟妹...
你对我说的...狠心的话....
将会慢慢地...把我心中的你...消去...
现在我的心里...
你的样子已经模糊...
但... 每当看到属于我们的东西....
那些我们曾经度过的日日夜夜....
都会浮现在眼前....

现在的我们...已经无法回到过去....
而你曾经教我的事....
你曾经教我爱你爱到无可救药....
你..也教我伤得无法自拔....
你教我痛狠你一辈子....
你教我伤透我的心....
你教我...慢慢地...放弃你....

许静宜...
我爱你, 因为你带我漫游一次的天堂
同时...我恨透你....
因为你把我推到背叛,孤独与悲伤的深渊....

想把你忘记...
你却一次又一次地出现在我的脑海中....
如果淋雨中...能把一切忘记...重新来过...
我希望...忘记所有关于你的一切....
在没有你的世界....继续我的生活....

......

2008-06-29T20:56:00.000+08:00

Even SPM is coming soon....I'm still watching Taiwan Drama...
Corner With Love....
She's the 1 who introduce me this drama....
I don't know whether any means on it...
I just feel that... everytime when I watch this drama...
I just feel 1 thing..... Sadness....Around me....
Even thought it had been a few months...
I really don't know...
if I'm already forget who is she....why should I feel sad when i saw the girls in the drama which...her attitude juz like her...
If I'm already recover from the hurt.... why I'm still feel my heart pain...when i'm thinking of her...
if she nvr comes to my world.... why I'll have all this kind of feel..when i'm alone...
If she did comes to my world..... why she don't just live in my world...and be with me forever??
If I never love her before.... Why should I care bout her??.....even though she's other guy's girlfriend...
If I love her before.... Why should I Let go...?...let her be with other guy and left myself cry, and sad at the back....?
If I really love her.... Why should I feel unconfidence...about her??? and me???.....
I just don't know or I had already forget her name....
Her face is slowly disappear in my mind...
but... when something bout her, or when I found something bout me and her....the memory...
those promise...and her face...will appear in front of my eyes...
but... in the same time.... What she had done to me.... What she had said to me....
Just like... A sword.... strike into my heart....
and every single thing bout her.... will be flow out with the blood in my heart... along the swords..
Why I'm still care about her??....
She's nobody but the 1 who hurts me so long....
she nvr try to look at me how did i feel last time...
and she nvr knows that.... everything that she had did to me...
had hurts me....kill me completely...
nvr have a chance to survive...
I'm still living in the shadow...with a mask....
when I will left the shadow and throw away my fake mask..........
that's the time.... I really forget her...completely and she disappear from my mind and heart...
or... ???....haha...I'm still leave some hope to myself....
but, the hope will be vanished...soon...

Finally....Mid-term Xam finished...>.<"

2008-06-18T21:55:00.000+08:00

Yea, juz like what the title write, my mid-term exam juz ended...
guess what??....the stone in my heart sink into the sea adi....
but too bad....it will float back after a week of rest....
'cause...I GONNA PREPARE MY TRIAL....AR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The words that spin in my brain is.... STRESS,STRESS, and STRESS!!!!!
ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.....
Gonna be crazy....
well, this 1 week is my treasure week.... for me to do anything that i need to do and what i wanna do soon...
This time my result....i think ....SUre sucks....
why??....study during the exam....
O.o'''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''
My brain now is full with Add Math Formula, Chemistry Carbon Compound and Alcohol, Physics Concept and Formula........and more....almost full in space...no more space for other....
but, i still need to "imput" chinese literature, history and some BM skill for it....
sure my brain will explode......
haiz..., summore I'm not a clever guy, nor a stupid guy.....so, gonna be a bit difficult for me...
Ok...no more exam or any education topic...
My "all bout girls" time...lol
well, today didn't see J at all...don't know whether she still sick or not....
really very miss her...so much...
After school, sending Qing Ling back to her house, and chat bout the chinese literature...
well, luckily trial don't have chinese literature, but too bad i don't have any example for chinese literature paper...afraid that later can't answer....sure die....
=_="...why i still need to care bout it?? after 1 week 1st la...
then, she say she afraid her english....and she afraid her result this time....she say she did very bad this time....I juz tell her that no need to worry bout.... if this time can't do well, juz do better and better in next time....am i right??? sure~~~~

then, on the way back to home, in the bus, saw Li Fern and chat with her....but, strange...why every1 chatting bout exam??...der......
and back home at 4 something...
and sit at my "throne"....and dota dota and dota....although i'm a beginner....
after that, open my msn and saw fennie left some msg to me... she's agree to what i write in my personal msg.... well, actually that 1 it's juz a lyrics from Kenji Wu Ke Qun's Wei Ni Xie Shi....
I juz translate it from chinese to english...:P...
then, go for basketball....today really sucks man...
don't even shoot in 1 ball....

Oh yeah, I get my new spec adi....Show u all tomorrow...
but, it's same 'cause nothing changed but juz the colour of the frame...
ok, end of this post, Happy Mid-term Xam Ended....LOL...^^

Choir State Level Competition...haiz

2008-06-12T19:49:00.000+08:00

Today's Our Choir's important day...Choir State Lvl Competition...
well, result is.....too bad, not the champ, but 3rd place, Yea, lose to the same opponent,
SeaField and GomBak....
well, it's nothing to feel sad bout it, 'cause we had did our best for it...
haiz, tell the truth, of course la... will feel sad de, 'cause this is my last year wat...
so, wanna have some good memories before i graduate...example?? go into the Nasional Lvl competition....
well, that dream can't be true, and ....haiz, it looks like exhausted after this comp, and everything gonna be normal again.... back to my normal school life, back to my exam field...
Well, maybe it's time to concentrate on my study, if not, SPM sure die punya....
Oh yeah, "somebody" know something terrible, horrible, and vegetable....
well, it's doesn't like a matter of other buddy, but for me...
really afraid tat "somebody" will suddenly come and punch me....
well, although I learnt Wu Shu before, But i never use it to defense myself before...
Hope everything's gonna be ok....

And CHS Choir Members, although we can't get the champ in this year, but put more effort and look for more guys and ask them to join choir, and practice more, I'm very sure that the champ for the next year will be us, well, we're graduated, but, our spirits will always be your sides!!!!
All the Best..!!!!!

Same day, different practice...

2008-06-02T22:32:00.000+08:00

Another "tired-ing" day for me....
well, gonna wake up early and went to school with Noob king jie min's car..
arrived, onli evelyn there...-_-...
and wait~ for about 1.30 hours ...baru ada orang datang...haiz...
then, continue our boring~boring~ and boring practice...
but, today's special....the choir separate to 2 groups and practice,
after 30 mins, guys gonna change their group and meet their new "family member"...s
well, still perform very well...of course, Tenors rocks!!!!
then until 1 o'clock....dun wan to eat lunch...so, go to 7-11 and buy a big pack of soya bean and drank it....that's my "lunch"...
then...ntg to do....'cause still got a lot~ of time before until the practice time....
so, went to the place that "we" together before...
well, juz feel kinda strange ....
what to do??...EMO again....haiz
after that, back to Choir and continue our practice...
this time...walau...."Cantik Lamp" ask somebody to distract us when we're singing....==
but, too bad there's no effect on me...
and i can see many "buddy" almost distracted by him completely....
and finally the practice end....and back to home about 4.55 something...
juz don't care anything, change my cloth and bang to my bed and sleep....until now(over-exhausted)

Oh yeah, let's chat bout girls...
well, today actually wanna "invite" J to have breakfast and lunch with me,
but too bad, she didn't come...

and I saw a girl.... I think i know her...
if i didn't forget, she's name Jia Yi, Form 4 de...(but dunno what class...--")
well, what i know about her is.....juz she's live at old town de...
that's all...hehe, 'cause last time when i'm going back to my grandma's house, always saw her ride on the same bus with me...but, too bad i didn't chat with her at all...
erm... can say as leng lui??....lol
dunno la, juz type for fun de...

Wedding Party...

2008-06-02T00:14:00.000+08:00

Today's my cousin's wedding party....so, sure need to wear formal coat to there...
and spike my hair too....spiky hair plus formal coat....looks kinda weird....
but, still got somebody puji me leng cai....:P...
so...went there about 7:30pm++...and thought gonna be another boring day for me...
so, i sms many ppl... HOPE that those ppl will reply me and have a sms chat...
but, too bad... only 1 ppl reply me...T.T...
today juz keep on chatting with my cousin, 'cause nothing to do ma...
and drunk alot of alcohol(although i know i'll mabuk...==")
Totally, today i have drunk 3 cups of red wine and 2 cups of brandy plus cola...
well, back to home, feel dizzy..and pengsan....and mabukk...XP
and getting high after drunk the alcohol....even sang with the singer there...
well, the conclusion is...TODAY IS EXTREMELY HAPPY!!!!...
NO NEED TO THINK SO MUCH AND NO NEED TO STRESS...!!!!
well, the photo will post out ASAP, if u think that i'm leng cai, juz left a word for it, thanks ya~~
(a bit perasan....XD)

My Bro, My Sis, "~~~", and me, hehe...

~~~=my cousin

From Up left, My cousin, Me

From Down Left, my bro, grandma, and my sis

The Yeng Guyz Group~~~

Cheers!!...(I'm not holding coke, but brandy!!!)

The Beauty and...not the beast, but leng cai...lol

That's me, how is it?? did I look like FBI??...lol...^~^

.......

2008-05-30T22:04:00.000+08:00

Bad news for me....
Yesterday, I just wanna have some good rest because this few days... doesn't feel well plus damn tired....
Then, "J" SMS and ask from me: by the way, was that jie min?
Huh??....Jie Min??? Blur case....
Meanwhile, that Noob King Jie Min called and me and yell at me, this is our conversation:
JM:Hey, I help u to ask adi...
CF: Ask what??
JM: Ask whether "J" likes you or not lo....
(CF: WTF!?!?!?!?)--Thinking...
CF: and what she said??
JM: Yes, but as friend...
(CF:-_-...haiz....I'll already know that she'll gimme that answer...)

Then, reply to "J":
CF:did that noob king ask u something??
J:yea, he did asked me something
(CF:OMG....this can't be true....I juz thought that guy was jk on me)
CF: then... did i have a chance for it??
J: Chance?..erm...depends 'cause "XOXOXOXO"
(CF: looks like somebody can't let go someone...juz same as i....=_=")
well, at the end....Friends.....==
Actually, It's ok for me....
But, I guess I really did like(or fall in love??who cares???) J adi....
that's why when i heard that answer....Haiz....Sadness around me~~...
And it makes me can't sleep well...until today I felt exhausted, Headache, sleeepy, almost pengsan....O.O
But...well, I know why I'll got such a strange feeling... it's been a long time didnt be in a relationship...plus summore we r the same type of ppl....
So...maybe that's the reason why i can't figure out that...actually i already like or love her adi....

Why...

2008-05-22T20:43:00.001+08:00

I still can't let go from her...
When i saw them together,...i'll still feel envy...
I already know that we can't be together anymore,
I juz wanna be friend, but... she don't even wanna see me at all...
Friends? she say we still can be friends....but, when u saw a friend, u juz blacked ur face, and walk away without saying anything like Hi or something, and when talking to u, never listen what u said, and when u finished saying, ask u back: what r u saying just now??...
Is this how she treats her friends??
If really did, I think I really don't know who is she and she's juz another people that juz walk across me....
But, why?? ....
I really can't figure out the answer...
can Anyone pls tell me??....
I'm suffering now... Can anyone juz give me the answer that i search for a long time???

We Are The Champion~~~~

2008-05-22T20:35:00.000+08:00

Yeah...We Are The Champion...for what?? of course....CHOIR~~~
Guess what??... yesterday we went to SMK (P) Sri Aman to take part in the Choir Competition Daerah Petaling Utama..
When we practice there, is damn suck man...,
but when is our turn, some other school choir even said "Oh shit" ...
'cause we are the best compare to other school..(Perasan ya? but it's true...^^)
and we r going to take part in the state level soon on 12th of june,which is still Exam....haiz
gonna retake the exam that without Purata....WTF...==
Anyway, this competition proves that our school Choir club is better than other school in Petaling Utama...
Well, not juz Petaling Utama, We'll show other State's Choir, What We Got!!!!

Here's the Choir's Tenor+Bass+ 1 Alto
tell the truth, i'm the most leng cai there...LOL^^

The 3 leng cai( can say so??) in Choir...lol^^"

We~ Are~~ The~~~ Champ~~~~ion~~~~~!!!^^

Genting...

2008-05-04T22:45:00.000+08:00

Yeah, yeah....juz came back from genting....
it's very boring upside there 'cause nothing special and almost everything had played and tried...
The only thing that i like to do at there is....let the wind blow on me....
the cold wind(but it seems not so cold anymore compare to last time-.-) blow on my face and my body...let me feel refresh....
and i watched the Ironman there....it's damn funny la...
can't figure out whether that 1 is a superhero movie or juz a funny movie...=="...
oh yeah, saw kar heng there...but unfortunately... i'm in bad mood that time...so didn't chat for anything...
well, now's totally boring, tired, and plus summore tomorrow need to back to school again ....T.T

My 1st Blog...

2008-05-02T17:46:00.000+08:00

This is the 1st time i create a blog...LOL...
well, actually wanna create a blog long time ago...but dunno how to make it....
Tomorrow sport's day....haiz...
another sunny,burst and hot day for all of us....
but, I'll not be there...hehe...
Sry guys to tell u all that I'll be at Genting when u all r having a dating with "Mr sunny"...
but too bad i can't attend the last Sport's day in my life....T.T

How's my status now??....
In front of my friends, I'm still a happy,funny,lazy,sleepy,busy guy....
but, tell the truth...i still feel sad to what that girl said...yeah, the gurl that hurts me deeply...
who's that??...she's the bendahari of 4P1.... Ku Jin Yee....
I know her since form 2.... and ...haiz...don't really want to talk about her...
even though she said we r still friends, but i can figure out that...
she don't really want to see me in anyplace....that she was being with her little President....
I try to forget about her.... and try to take them as transparent(even though is useless..==")
but... I'll still getting mad when i saw them....

Oh yeah, there's somebody i need to wish her happy be-very-lated birthday....
Estelle Lai....pai seh la...'cause dunno when's ur birthday and no time to prepare a present for u...
Well, as a "friend" that know u since form 1, i'll try to buy a present for u but i dunno whether u wanna take it or not...

A advice to the ppl who r still in single: single is better than couple....
it's true.... :P....

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